A few months before my 30th birthday I had a huge dip in my life. You know that morning you wake up and you realize you've been miserable for such a long time it has become a way of life?
I fell into a pit of depression to the extend that I forgot I've got duties as a mom, and that my baby deserves my love & attention- I gave her none.
I was on my phone every evening&the worst part is (excluding the neglect of my child) that I have nothing to show for that time lost. Nothing productive. Nothing.
I started seeing a psychologist, whom helped me tremendously, to sort out my life, what I want for my future, and how to climb out of this pit I got lost in.
It's a serious wake-up call when you realize you are in the prime of your life with so much productive time left and you are doing nothing, you are living like a retired person...
I am blessed with good health, a steady job, and a beautiful & smart little girl whom is actually so well-behaved but just wants her mommy's time.
So with help I started sorting out my life, getting rid of all the negative influences, remembering the bright-eyed girl I was at 18 with so many dreams, of which I achieved nothing.
I started making lists of what I need to do, what my dreams are, what I want to achieve.
I'm working on it. I haven't accomplished anything yet, but I have new motivation to try & I have my belief in God that I can achieve it when the time is right.
I started going to Church again, and I've found my place. I know what I have to do with my life & I know I want to be an example to my daughter, someone for her to look up to.
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